By David Griswold
For what is life, but a brief search to give,
That we may love, and loving, hope to live…
It was three in morning. On the edge of sleep and a dream, I walked slowly through the darkness of the house, lit only by the green glow of clocks, and opened my computer to write down those lines.
I wasn’t sure what they meant, only that they had a meaning I didn’t want to lose.
In the morning, as I started my computer and sat down for breakfast, I pored over those lines with the loud crunch of Raisin Bran resounding in my head. For the past six months prior to this late night revelation, I had been plotting out a year long trip of service, intending to coordinate three hundred and sixty five different volunteer events in three hundred and sixty five different places across the globe. Called “project 360^5″, the hope was that a project like this would help inspire others to see and embrace the endless opportunities to give around them.
As I sat there at the table though, the early morning sunlight pouring in from the windows, it occurred to me then that a giving “project” didn’t make sense. Giving back and volunteering wasn’t something that I could “do” - something that could begin and end - but it was something that I needed to live.
If life was a search - for happiness, for meaning, for connection - then it was a search that I wanted to give back. I believed then, as I do now, that it was only in a sustained giving of myself that the purpose and joy I sought could be found.
In the half-dream of that night, I realized that I had found words for a struggle that had been churning below the surface since I had first left my job at Google in California, hoping to clarify a path and a purpose for my life. There wasn’t an answer to my questions - only a process of answering that I needed to embrace.
Since that time, my goal has been to live mindfully - to live what I think of as a life of “loving action”. To me, this means an unending openness, readiness and desire to give in every moment of every day, and an active seeking of opportunities to learn from others, in hopes of learning better what I can give back to the world.
What began as project 360^5 has today evolved into an initial step in my lifelong search to give. In September, I will be setting out across the globe, volunteering for six months in six different countries, before returning to the States and road-tripping from California to Maine, knitting together weeks of volunteer activities with family, friends and whoever else is willing to open their door.
My sense is that there are all too many people out there who want to get out and volunteer, but who just need a little push to break free from the normal routines of their lives. While the dream remains that this trip might serve as an inspiration for those I’ve never met, my hope is that it might first serve as a spark for my immediate network of friends and family, and ripple outwards from there.
This emphasis on a more personal scope is based on my own experience having seen the difficulty of mobilizing communities through broad outreach campaigns. Though these efforts often prove effective in raising awareness, and are capable of reaching a large audience in a short time, I’ve found that it takes almost always takes a personal connection - often a personal request or story - to motivate someone to make a change in their lives.
Organizing a trip like this and trying to mobilize people around it would be near impossible to do by myself. But by reaching out personally and asking for the help of friends and family, my hope is that they might embrace and extend this project, reaching out to their own networks, and thereby expanding that personalized call to action. My role then is simply to provide the dates and the impetus for organizing a week or so of service, and to suggest ideas and tools (like volunteermaine.org, idealist.org, or allforgood.org) to make this process easier.
Having a blog at the center of all this - a place to share pictures, videos and stories - then allows all those who participate and hear about the project to share in the journey as it unfolds. Each event, each potluck, each can of food donated, each mile traveled - each becomes a piece in a growing mosaic that everyone can feel a part of.
As I travel, and as the network of this trip expands, my hope is to learn from others what giving means to them, and to share stories and resources with all who are contemplating their own “answering”. I know I have not come to close to living fully the vision of love I have set out for myself, and expect that I will only discover how much more room I have to grow as I embark on this journey.
In setting forth for a year, breaking free from the normal flow of my day to day, and intentionally creating a space in my life where giving can enter my heart and mind - my hope is that I may be able to fold these principles of love and giving into my everyday action, sublimating the conscious desire to give into an unconscious and undeniable state of being.
To whatever extent it’s helpful to you, I would love to have you join in this journey, whether that is simply participating in the conversation that unfolds, or finding stops along the way where you’d like to get out and give back. You can learn and read more at asearchtogive.org, where I’ll be blogging the journey come September.
Prior to setting off in September, I’d love to hear your own stories of giving, such that I might learn from you in advance of my own journey, and that we might learn a bit from one another. At the end of the day, we’re here, we only get one now, and we’re all in this together. It all starts with the question - and from there, the answers are endless.
David Griswold is a guest blogger. Follow his journey online at asearchtogive.org.